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Fiery by cLaregRace
During this time I was struggling with making myself enjoy what I'm drawing. I don't know why but I somehow lost the excitement of having to draw every after work. Maybe I was burnt out with work already and the thought of still having to draw when I'm supposed to be resting is a little too much for me? But I still managed to come up with something that's "ok" for me. 
I've been asking for more free time so that I'll be able to practice and create more of the things that I want to do. But now that I have all the time in the world, I can't seem to to make myself face my computer. Instead I find myself doing house chores and doing even more house chores, I think more than necessary sometimes until I realize that I've used up most of my remaining free time of the day. Then I get exhausted and lay down on my bed or just be lazy and watch TV. Even if I get to face my laptop I always find  myself in front of Facebook's ugly dashboard and keep on scrolling down absentmindedly 80% of the time. By the time that I realize I'm wasting my time then there's not much left to do but to sleep. Yup, been really lazy this past few days.

Resigning from my job was probably one of the scariest and bravest thing that I had to do for myself. It was liberating and felt that I finally got out of a prison guarded by selfish people (not all of them of course, don't need to explain myself here :D). Working for more than the regular working hours was really exhausting and it made me hate most of the things that I love, it kept me from doing things with heart, time and passion. Everything was fast and frustrating in a lot of ways. But I learned a lot. 

I was so tired and so I decided that I really need to rest. So I got out of my job, not all of them of course and here I am. Finally got the time to write a journal here on deviantART and finally had the time to explore this site even more. Lots of great artists here that's for sure.

I guess I was avoiding things that I wanted to do because I was afraid that I might fail. I know that I have a lot of improving to do. I also have dreams and plans inside my head but I really didn't know how to start them yet. Everything's such a big blur right now, I really need to pull myself together and face all of those questions and doubts inside my head. I guess this is what they call the fear of the unknown. But then again, how will I get rid of it if I keep on ignoring it right? Time to man up and face them! Fight!!La la la la La la la la La la la la La la la la 

These smileys are so cute!!:happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: CURSE YOU! 
  • Mood: Daily Needs
  • Listening to: Hay Day's background music! lol


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Hey there, my name's Clare and I'm from the Philippines. I've loved digital art for so long and am continually trying my best to improve and learn. Good thing there's Deviantart.

Please take a look at my work if you have time :)

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HalosMadeOfSummer Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for the watch :D
cLaregRace Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My pleasure, your works are great :D
Azatdraw Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Professional Writer
Thanks for the FAV! :)
cLaregRace Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No problem! :D
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cLaregRace Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
you're welcome :D
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muamerART Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
nice work ^^
cLaregRace Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks :D, checked your works and they're really great! :)
muamerART Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
thanks :)
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